Thursday, June 26, 2008

Schoooooool's out
for Sum-Mah!
Schooooool's out
for Ev-Ah!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

good times

My anniversary supper, made by my personal take-home-chef: my hubby of many talents....

Does my neck look all giraffish?

Appetizer: spinach dip in a bread bowl

Main course: creamy broccoli stuffed chicken breasts

Dessert: Skor bar cake with whipped cream and strawberries

As you can imagine, I was very impressed. It got me wondering if there was anything that my husband could'nt do. I really thought about it, and was stumped. Of course my humble hubby tried spitting out answers, but it was obvious, he is,

So our weekend was wonderful. My daughter was away at the lake with her dad, stepmom and sister, having a blast swimming, boating and going to the clubhouse for candy. While we too made the most of the sunny days here, spending most of our time outside. I'm proud to say my skin is officially sunkissed.

It's so nice to enjoy the outdoors so much more now. I love walking around and heading to all the neat things going on in the city. I'm so blessed that my hubby has been such a good influence on me in that way. Other years I would just want to sit in the sun and do nothing, other can catch some good ol' heat stroke. I am still a sucker for sun bathing though, don't get me wrong ;)

My sister came over last night for a visit, and we had no idea what to do with ourselves, since we're always surrounded by kids saying "I'm thirsty, I'm hungry, what's for supper? Faith hit me, Daniel pulled my hair, Noah isn't sharing, Isaiah is being rude, Elishah is hurt, Jonah's tattling, Faith is bugging us, Noah isn't helping us clean, Daniel is beating up the ginea pigs, Eishah climbed on the kitchen table, Jonah's ignoring me, we can't find this, we can't reach that, I'm hot, I'm cold, I'm tired, I don't want a nap, we don't want to play outside, we want to play outside, we're borrrrrrrred....."

Oops, am I coming across as needing adult time?

So my sis was over last night, and as I said we had no idea what to do with ourselves. So we did this:

ever try balancing on a ball without letting your feet touch the ground?


As I was writting this post which has taken forever, I forgot about the weiners I had boiling in a pot upstairs. Needless to say all the water had evaperated and the weiners were sizzling and burning at the bottom of the pot. Yummay!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

4 years/ 48 months/ 208 weeks/ 1461 days

I've been saying since our first year into marriage that I wish I was able to say we've been married for 10, so that people could stop calling us newly-weds. I'm still long awaiting the 5 year mark as some kind of invisible door that we'll pass through and become known for possibly knowing a thing or two.

But aside from my constant wondering what others think, I say screw it. Heck, 4 years, in this day in age? We might as well be celebrating our 25th! With divorce being so common, especially within the first couple of years of marriage, I'd say we've accomplished quite a feat already.

I've been thinking and chewing and pondering and seeking this whole marriage subject for a while now. Watching two couples close to us after only being married a year or two throw in the towel, and bawling through the movie The Break up, really forced me to take a look at my life and ask myself, am I really in this for the long haul?

They classify The Breakup as a comedy, but the movie I saw was a drama, a very very sad and depresssing drama. Here was THE couple, and because neither one of them were willing to look past themselves, they missed out, on what could have been. It really made me think of us, and how selfish and immature we were when we were first married. When I look back to that first year, I'm so embarassed. Things sucked, all the time. Occasionally, there might be a small breath of fresh air, that reminded us of why we loved eachother, but other than those occasional breaths, we suffocated through the first year. If I would've gauged what our marriage would be like on our first year, I would've been out that door faster than a fat boy on a smartie, with my daughter packed in my suitcase. Surely being a single mom was easier than this! I'm not joking, it was.

But guess what, we didn't kill eachother, we didn't leave, we bit our tongue, sometimes until they bled, we even vowed that neither of us would ever sleep on the couch! (Believe me, there were soooo many nights where you could've fit a whole football team between us on that bed) And after what felt like many years, our first year was completed, with some battle scars yes, but more importantly, a deeper sense of the commitment we made on June 19th 2004.

Time went on, and the more we gave of ourselves into our marriage, the more our marriage became amazing. Each anniversary we've had, we've been so amazed at how much more in love we are with eachother, and how much we've grown together as one. He's more like me and I'm more like him! It's weird to think it's only been 4 years, when I look at all we've walked through together. Poverty, custody and court battles, career and life changing choices, depression insomnia, physical ailments, a very hard pregnancy, a death in the family, buying our first house........I could go on, but I can't put our story in point form. Our story holds so many miracles, so much glory. When I really allow that to soak in, I'm so thankful that I did not give up, that I vowed with my whole self, that calling it quits was never an option, that we got through those tough times. Where would I even be today without all this blessing and beauty? I know I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for my husbands unconditional love, and the holy spirit working and moving powerfully through him. He is a man completely worthy of my respect, and I'm in awe and honored that I can call him my husband.

I know I may be making it sound like I think we now have it all together, that we're now "wise" because we stuck it out for 4 years. I know 4 years isn't really that long, and I know we have so much more to learn, and that we'll be figuring this whole marriage thing out until the day we die. I know that 4 more years will go by and I'll be saying wow! To think we thought it was good then, look at it now! I'm encouraged to know that God isn't limited or intimidated by time. I know that He sees the finished product, and that He has grace and mercy for the areas we struggle in. I'm just so amazed at how far we've come, and how much we've grown together. I couldn't imagine this life any other way.

I'm so in love with my husband. He was made specifically just for me, he has and is everything I could need, he completes me in every way, and I'm loving sharing the rest of this life with him.

Happy Anniversary !!!!

It's been 4yrs sweetie !?!?!?! unbelievable

I love you more that I could ever express, its amazing to look back at us 4 years ago and see what God has been able to do with the two of us and to think of all the times he has used one of us to encourage, bless, correct, love and lead the other.

I am so blessed that God chose you to be my wife.

You are amazing………….. Be blessed today my love.

Sorry for hijacking your blog but I thought it would supprise you :)


Tuesday, June 17, 2008

27 degrees hommies!

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Thursday, June 12, 2008

A Paniel Post

My muscle-man

Drunk on chocolate
And finally....
"There's Something About Daniel"

My snotty runny-nosed son after Dada took his shirt off.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

breaking new ground

Walking this journey towards health and wellness has had more ups and downs than I ever imagined. It's been way harder (better, faster, stronger), and way more rewarding than I dreamed.

There is so much stiring in my heart, but I'm still chewing on it all myself. I know that running this 2K with my sis was not about running 2K, it was about both of us, as a team, stickin it to the laziness and low self-worth we have walked in all our lives. And man, did that feel good.

I'm encouraged today, that God is so pleased with us! We are doing things that are being done for the first time, breaking new ground, and our Daddy is jumping for joy with us, our number one fan, our loudest cheerleader.

May we not leave this secret place, where we are safe to be us, safe to grow and learn, where it's just us, being compared to no one but ourselves, remembering where we've been, and anticipating without doubt where we're going.

I love you Sarah!