Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Random facts, idiosyncrasies, thoughts and stupidities...

I am 9 weeks pregnant with my husband's first child. I love sandals, tank-tops and tanning. I had a pierced tongue, eyebrow, nose and lip. My husband and I dated in highschool. My mom once put a slice of cheese in one of my friends shoes. The friend did not find this funny. I did.

I grew up listening to Offspring, Dance Mix 93' and up and all the classic blues like B.B King and Stevie Ray Vaughn. I used to want to be a rock star at Bud's on Broadway. I failed biology twice. I dyed my hair fire engine red for my grandpa's funeral. I no longer have a toenail on my left pinky toe, from ripping it out by the root so many times. My daughter 'sings' her thoughts and comments. My dad litterally kicked my butt all the way home after I'd ran away. I hate the smell and appearance of ground beef, but I eat it.

My husband can't sit still and always jumps at least twice after putting his coat on. I grew up with a hampster named Tobi. We over fed him and he died of a heartattack. I love daisies. I love black appliances. I kill plants. I love Seinfeld. I dropped out of school in grade 8, then again in grade 11. I got my GED results back when I came home from my honeymoon. I passed!

I totalled my sister-in-law's car. My husband has totalled more cars than anyone can count. My mom got arrested for unpaid parking tickets. I sometimes snort when I laugh. I don't floss. I drool in my sleep. I got a trophie in a keyboard competition with my cousin. I've never broken any bones. I share an apartment with a big boy, a little girl and a spikey lizard.

I used to hide in the dryer when playing hide and seek with my sis. I kick butt at Mortal Kombat 1&2 and Mario Kart for Super Nintendo. I used to write notes to my friends in highschool and fold them in little squares and triangles. I used to have a crush on Billy Corgan from Smashing Pumpkins. I love to dance. One time my mom rolled up little pieces of paper and put them in my tunafish sandwich. I ate it.

My sister was always full of useful information, like how to inhale when you're smoking at the age of 8. I always thought that my hubby and his family were too good for me. I pierced two holes in my ear with a blunt earring. I got pregnant with my daughter when I was 16. She is the joy of my life.

I have lower back problems. I witnessed the birth of both my nieces. I don't like Valentine's Day. I like playing pool, singing, walking and laughing. I got fired from Pharmasave. One time my husband threw me into a set of metal shelves with a plush chair when we were fooling around in Zellers. My daughter likes to play Barbie's. I lack imagination.

My sister and I laughed so hard once that we both puked. I used to pick my boogers and stick them under my mattress. I used to want to move to Calgary and busk on the streets. I used to want to be a social worker. I used to think Humpty's was the coolest hang-out. I used to litter. I think getting a tatoo is silly. I have one.

I haven't seen my natural hair color in ten years. I don't think I ever will. My favorite vegetable is broccoli. I got my phone cut off just before I got married. My hubby and I didn't exchange Christmas gifts this year. I liked Steve better than Joe on Blue's Clue's. My dad gave me an appreciation for all types of music, except country.

I can't wait to see all the new things God has in store for me and family. I can't wait to be blessed with a house. I hurt for women who don't know their worth. I love my husband so much, and somedays wonder how I got to be so lucky. I love my church family. I wouldn't trade my parents for anyone. I wouldn't trade my upbringing for any perfect white picket fence home. I love that Jesus saved me in the midst of heartache, and gave me forgiveness for the most horrible things. And I love how everyday His mercies are new for me. His grace is sufficient for me. His peace surpasses all understanding. Thanks to all you girls who started this, it was fun!

Sunday, February 05, 2006

emotional chaos

Have been so flipping emotional it's not even funny......well, yeah it is.

Friday I spent most of my morning sitting in the middle of the kitchen floor bawling my eyes out, then spent a good portion of the afternoon in bed bawling my eyes out. When I finally built up enough strength to get up, I went over to the kitchen to wipe off some of my daughter's place mats that she had painted on. As I wiped the paint off I noticed I was wiping off the finish from the placemat. I felt at that very moment that everyone I knew had just died, and that I was all alone. The placemat was wrecked, and it was the end of my world as I knew it.

Saturday evening I was driving with my hubby in the snow and wind, and the road were slick. Now I'm not a nervous driver. Driving is fun! I'm the kind to actually giggle at people (like my mom) who clench their steering wheel until their knuckles are white, and drive like a snail when the weather is acting up a little. I wonder how people like that can keep their sanity when they feel so uptight. Well, I think I got a taste of how they must feel. I felt so overwhelmed with everything going on around me that I burst into tears. I felt claustrophobic in our little car, I felt like I couldn't see anything, I felt like everyone was driving 1000 mph, and that the wind was going to flip the car over. What's going on??

So the last few days have been a blur, with chronic fatigue and emotional chaos, I can barely tell you what I did yesterday. My hubby has been amazing and very supportive. He's always been encouraging to me even at those monthly times, letting me know that's the way God made me, and that he loves the way I am. Awwwww......don't make me cry.

Just when I think I have no tears left, my body lets me know otherwise. I hope this doesn't make some of you want to steer clear of me. I'm still fun!!! I swear!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

"wild-cow" and "dweller by lime trees"

Recently, we've found ourselves expecting the glorious arrival of another child. Our second addition, but our first experience of bringing life into this world together. It's been such an exciting time for us and our family members, as we embark on a new season in our lives, in our marriage, and in our family. What a blessing it is to be able to conceive a new life, with my very best friend in the whole world. I don't want a day to pass where I am not truly thankful for this opportunity, although I'm sure I'll have my moments. (I do know my fair share of some of the things pregnancy has to offer! And being in my third trimester in the thick of summer might be cause for some groaning.)

In other news, my daughter gets a double blessing. Her birth dad and his finace are also expecting, and are due a month before me! What an amazing blessing for my daughter! Their pregnancy has opened doors to restoration of our relationship. Hearts have been softened and walls are being broken down. I am so blessed to be able to stand back and watch God show off, and basically hand everything over that I have ever asked for and more! For years I have had a burning desire to be fighting together and not against eachother. It truly is a miracle to see how God has changed my heart in these last years. I am able to pray now from a new heart, and bless my daughter as she goes away, as I know His destiny for her is far greater than my human eyes can see.

My husband passed his mutual fund exam Praise God! He will now be able to move into a whole new level in his business, which will bless our family so much. I'm loving watching him grow into this amazing business man, striving to serve God in his workplace. I remember his first day, when he left the house in a suit and tie (a novelty that wore off long ago for him). We giggled at how old and profesional he looked. Like as if he was an adult or something. Weird.

My days seem to pass by quicker than ever, because I've been feeling so tired. I've had no morning sickness hallelulia! But everyday I feel like I'm running a marathon. My apartment would sure tell you differently by the way it looks these days. It's neat to know that my body is working overtime to lay the foundation of a new human life.

Have my pregnancy "bible" (What to expect when you're expecting) as well a name book by my bedside every night. It's been fun to go through new names with my hubby, and come across those names that have real funny meanings. Leah (although a very beautiful name) means "wild-cow", and Lyndon (another nice name) means "dweller by lime trees". Who decides these things anyway? We've come up with quite the list so far. We're keeping it hush hush until we can narrow it down.

We still have all our long distance phone calls to make to all the relatives. And my hubby's dad has been out of town all this time, so he'll get his surprise tomorrow! Can't wait to take the cat out of the bag one last time, what a rush it is!

Many many blessings to you all!