God led me a couple weeks ago to publicly share a testimony of His faithfulness, and now here I am, doubting the very things I proclaimed that day. I withstanded the waves at first, but I unfortunately have to admit that in the last couple of days I've been worn down. I've been looking at the situation through eyes of fear. It's come of no surprise to me that I find myself in this time of testing.
As I go to the Word I'm reminded that God never changes. He is the same yesterday today and forever, and as He's been faithful in the past, He will also be faithful today. I'm encouraged today with the story of Jacob.
Jacob's name means "the one who takes by the heel." Jacob grasped his brothers heel coming out of the womb. Just as we grasp our own self-seeking agenda and will, so did Jacob. But God loved Jacob! How amazing that He used such a deceitful person to continue the process of redemption! And as the Lord transformed Jacob, He gave him a new name, Israel, which means "let God rule!"
The fact that God can transform a self-seeking and self-interested person and change him into a world-changer is my only hope. He alone can unclasp my human grasp, and replace it with a faithful grip on the knife He's given me to raise. Will He send a lamb just in time? I believe that He will. It may not appear in ways I expect, but I can trust that it is good, and very sufficient.