Wonderful is what I perceived this life would be
pain and problem free
but over time I found reality
and through it all I see
that You're the only one who gets me
I may be misunderstood cuz I would never fake it
You're the only one who understands my pain
cuz You get me
doesn't matter what they do, what they think, what they say
at the end of the day I'm okay anyway
cuz Lord You get me
No more tears it's a silent night
You've broken down all fear
cuz You've invaded all of me
You know me better than I know myself
the key to my security
there is no one else who gets me
I may be misunderstood cuz I would never fake it
You're the only one who understands my pain
cuz You get me
doesn't matter what they do, what they think, what they say
at the end of the day I'm okay anyway
cuz Lord You get me
I don't care what the world may say
I hear You call me by name
and I reach for You
there's nothing that I'd rather do
than worship You
(~Zoegirl~)
Psalm 139:1-3
"O Lord You have searched me and know me, You know when I sit and when I rise, You perceieve my thoughts from afar, You discern my going out and my lying down, You are familiar with all my ways."
Went for a long ride on the pregnancy emotional roller-coaster yesterday. Seemed that no matter what I had to say about it, my body was going into cry-over-everything-mode, and there was nothing that anyone could do to stop it. Everything has been feeling just a little more physically strenuous these days, and yesterday I just couldn't seem to do anything without feeling completely exhausted. At the end of it all I snapped and had a melt down.
Hubby: "are you upset with me?"
I shook my head.
Hubby: "are you upset with your sister?"
I shook my head.
Hubby: "are you.......pregnant?"
Me: "yes........wahh!!!!!......."
Sigh. I went over to my moms, and walked in the door still drying my many tears.
My mom: "so how did your hubby hurt your feelings?"
Me: "he didn't."
Mom: "well who hurt your feelings?"
Me: "no one"
Mom: ".......then why are you crying?"
Me: "I don't know.......wahhhhh!!!!!
LOL, I'm so thankful that I'm able to recognize when my hormones are having a hay day, so that I can at least get through the roller-coaster rides. I know that this is exactly how God created my body to respond to the many miracles taking place inside of it. God is with me through it, He "gets me" and I don't even have to say anything, and His peace is still a gift for me to receive. My husband has been amazingly supportive, and I couldn't ask for a better man to walk this with. Thank God that those days only come and go sometimes, and that today is a new day. Blessings :)
Hello my beautiful emotional mommy. When I think of you I well up with happiness that words will just not express. here is a huge hug and a massive smile.
ReplyDeleteoh my goodness! i remember those days! they don't go away after the baby comes either! :)
ReplyDeleteyou are very blessed to have the support you do - and this awesome opportunity to enjoy such a great pregnancy.
thinking of you - and your emotions! :)
First of all, you are adorable! Second of all, you absolutely blessed my sister-in-law and I with your post about how your life hasn't always been a perfect walk. Thirdly, I love this post - and I can TOTALLY relate. I can't believe how often I've told my hubby lately "I'm about to cry, but don't worry about it, it's just hormones". He still thinks it is rather odd, but he is nice about it. LOL! I'm glad you see the humour in it too.
ReplyDeleteawww...you're too cute. I sometimes have those kinda days and I'm not even pregnant...well maybe spiritually I am.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a huge blessing. I'm so glad that I get to call you my friend
Hope you are having fun in Edmonton!!!
Haven't visited in awhile it was great to read all your bits and pieces. You're a great writer and a beautiful mommy to be...Can't wait to hear the songs that come out of all this new experience.
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